Today's Word = Lazy

Happy Monday folkz.

Here I am... in a silent house once again... Jeremie and Kristie are at school, Jess is at work and I'm here on the computer.

Today I have vowed to get SOMETHING accomplished other than sitting my a$$ here in front of this computer.

Hopefully I'll follow through.

Hmmm, this weekend was a lot of laziness on my part. I didn't go to football practice or the youth group. I just wanted to be a bum. And a bum I was!

We watched the Sopranos:

Not really feeling this season, but I am curious as to what the heck is going on with Tony Soprano... he's losin' his sh!t, that one.

We watched The Tudors:

I am soooooooooooo diggin' that show.

We watched Charm School with the girls from the Flavor of Love:

LOL is all I have to say on that subject! lol

Anyway, that was about all I accomplished this weekend. Lay-Zee. That be me.

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Before I go on... Happy birthday to Linda!! :D

Hope you had a great b-day!! :D

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Welp, the time of year has come again that all homeowners hate. Ok, I don't know about all homeowners, but me... I hate when it's lawn mowing time again.

Last year our lawnmower went to the big meadow in the sky and we were stuck trying to figure out how we were going to afford a new one.

Then we had the revelation that we could pay someone $30 every two weeks to do it for us! Ta da!

Anyhoo -- being as I'm still technically not earning a paycheck yet, asking someone to come mow the lawn without hope of pay is not really something that I expect anyone to agree to.

But, the grass is starting to look crappy and the yard (both front and back) has a ton of dandelions. I expect a "friendly reminder" from our neighbors any minute now. Bastages.

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This is gonna be a busy weekend. Friday night we are supposed to go to dinner with "The Crew" to see Maggie before she heads back to Florida.

Saturday I'm ditching the board meeting retreat for TCC to go to Gay Pride in N. Hampton with Kat, Jess and Kat's mentee.

REALLY excited about that.

Sunday is youth group and football practice.

Bizzy Bizzy Bizzy.

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So I signed that hateful paperwork signing over my first born (sorry Kristie!) and sent it back to my soon-to-be job. Let's see how long all of this takes.

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I have to write a paper for my class which I believe is due this weekend. So pretty soon I need to stop farting around here and actually start working on that thing.

...sigh...

Blech, ptewey.

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I don't know how many of you heard about how Guliani has now flipped on the gay marriage issue. Now he not only doesn't support gay marriage but he no longer supports civil unions. He believes domestic partnerships are enough. A$$hole.

Why stop there? Why not have homosexuals rounded up and put in concentration camps again?

Which reminds me, Jess and I watched this documentary called Paragraph 175 on HBO about homosexual treatment by the Nazis. Don't watch it unless you have a lot of tissues around.

We also watched this documentary on the story of Darryl Hunt who was imprisoned for 19 years on a rape and murder charge but was innocent.

Which proves my point further about the death penalty being a dangerous thing. Fortunately for him he didn't get the death penalty for the crime, but he could have! It was an option to the court.

Scary sh!t.

Not to mention he was SUCH a sweet, sweet guy. He was very lucky that people on the outside kept fighting for him. I bet there are thousands of people who are really innocent but are locked up anyway.

Poor things.

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Ok ok I've babbled enough. So, you know what that means...

Your Moment of Zen:

Damn you Skywalker!

Tina-cious Week In Review...

Quick n dirty, the way you like it. ;)

• I created yet another experimental blog that no one bothered to visit. lol
• Boris Yeltsin died.
• I got duped by an employment agency.
• I still hate Fred Phelps.
• My new soon-to-be new job is already aggravating me.
• Jeremie got his report and every grade went up! Woohooo!
• I have moved all my blog feeds to google's reader so I should be able to keep up w/ my blog friends now.
• Kristie came home to visit again. :)
• I changed the look of my blog yet again.
• I got an 89 on my Religion and Society exam.
• I created a video highlights video for the football team I'm on. Check it out here under "Galleries".
  
• This here is the funnniest blog entry I read this week.
• This here is the funniest/most bizarre YouTube video I've seen this week:

... have an excellent weekend folkz. :D

Seriously, you wouldn't have a problem w/ this??

When I went for my interview for the job at Yale, when I came out of there I told Jess that I didn't know how to gauge my would-be boss.

See, I'm usually a pretty good judge of character... so for me not to be able to pinpoint my (now) former boss, well, it spoke volumes.

That time I didn't listen to my inner alarm system and obviously, you all know how that turned out.

I'm getting that same eerie vibe about this job. I do not like the requirements they are putting on me to get this job. I do not like them ONE bit.

In fact, it's making me angry.

Yes, yes, before you all think I'm gonna say f*ck it and turn down this job, just know that I'm a slave to money at the moment and am fully aware that I am in no position to turn down this job and I will not under any circumstances turn it down or leave it without some sort of back-up plan.

I got the "offer letter" and other paperwork today.

One of the forms really is turning my stomach.

Now, I realize that this is company policy, so I am trying to not hold this all against my actual boss/position and just trying to see this all as red-tape.

I've just never ever come across a job that involved sooo much bullsh!t just to get in the door.

In w/ the forms is a form called Consent and Disclosure.

This is what I'm expected to sign:

I understand that ________________, will utilize the services of ___________________ as part of the procedure for processing my application for employment. I also understand if my application for employment is granted, ________________ may obtain further information through subsequent investigations by ________________________ so as to update, renew or extend my employment.

I understand that a consumer reporting agency's investigation may include obtaining information covering up to the last seven years, regarding my credit background, references, character, past employment, work habits, education, general reputation, personal characteristics, standard of living, civil judgments and liens, as well as any information about my criminal conviction background consistent with federal and state law.

In the event an investigative consumer report is conducted, I understand such information may be obtained by personal interviews with my acquaintances or associates or with others whom I am acquainted or who may have knowledge concerning my character, general reputation, personal characteristics or standard of living. I understand such information may also be obtained through direct or indirect contact with former employers, schools, financial institutions, landlords or public agencies or other persons who may have such knowledge.

Does no one else see anything f*cked up w/ this??? For f*ck's sake! It's an office job! I don't think the FBI asks for this much information!

Holy Christmas!

Well, I can tell them now... I quit jobs when I'm sick of my boss' treating me like an a$$hole. My credit rating is in the toilet (ergo, needing a good paying damn job to pay it off!) and my last landlord died of cancer.

...and what the hell is does my "standard of living" have to do with my work life??? What's the even MEAN?

I really do not want to sign this piece of paper.

I feel like I'm selling my soul to Satan for a job I don't even f*cking want to do!

Ugh... lemme just sign this f*cking thing and get this over with... hang on let me get a knife so I can sign it in blood....

p.s. While they are making me dance for them, I am going to keep looking for another job and hope to Hades, I get a different one.

What. The. F*ck.

Yesterday I spent the day with the florists helping them out.

I arrived at their house about 10 am and they had already loaded up the trucks, so there really wasn't anything for me to do but wait for one of the guys to come back with sandwiches for us for our trip into Manhattan.

When C got back with the sandwiches, we all piled into the 3 vans/SUVs that were making the trip. I rode up with C and chatted about our lives all the way up to the French Embassy in NYC.

When we got there parking was a b!tch so I didn't do anything but stay in the van to make sure it didn't get towed/ticketed.

While we were there C hit his head with the van door and got a HUGE welt on his forehead. It was about the size of a golf ball! It looked HORRIBLE! poor thing... lol

Anyway, they finished up there and we all went to the Pierre Hotel to set up the room there.

We got there and parking was a bear there too so I ended up sitting in the van again for a quite a while. Finally we found parking and I helped them unload the truck.

Of course we had to use the service entrance and had to get through a maze of elevators and hallways just to get to the room we needed to decorate.

Finally we got everything out of the truck and up to the room and we set up the flowers and such and everything was all done.

All said I was home by 8:30 pm.

And tired as hell (vases full of flowers and water are NOT light! lol)

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I found out Tuesday that I'm being offered that job in Stamford for about 5K more than my last job which was my highest paying job to date. I was pretty excited pleased.

I was supposed to get the offer letter via email yesterday or today but now it's looking like today or tomorrow.

I told them I could start on Monday but then I got a call from the agency that placed me there and they told me that this place requires me to take a PHYSICAL before I can start.

Not a drug test.

A PHYSICAL.

I'm soooooooooooooooo not happy about this. No, there's nothing wrong w/ me that I'm afraid of them finding out about.. it's just that... I find that a violation of my privacy!

Don't get me wrong... I'll do it. We need the money but -- well, let's just say I am definitely not feelin' it. Ugh... this is a first for me... and I can't help feeling like I'm being owned here.

It's an office job, for Pete's sake.

Oy... whatever -- we all do what we gotta, I suppose.

Oh, I just got a phone call from the agency again -- they are overnighting the offer letter and benefits info, etc. to me today, so I should get that tomorrow. :)

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The house is safe anyway -- I worked out payment arrangements so we should be good to go.

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What else... hmmm.. oh, a girl that I went to high school with found me on myspace. When I saw her picture, I remembered her and remembered her being a really sweet girl...

Come to find out she moved to New Haven and is gay too. LOL

Small world. :)

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Welp, I gotta go edit some footage, so... here's your Moment of Zen:

Sucka!

Fred Phelps is beyond disgusting...

Group Plans To Picket Va. Tech Funerals

April 18, 2007

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(CBS) By CBSNews.com's David Miller.

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The families of those killed in the Virginia Tech massacre may not be able to grieve in peace at the funerals of those they lost. An anti-gay religious group known for protesting at the funerals of American soldiers killed in Iraq is planning on appearing at services for those killed on Monday as well.

The Topeka, Kan.-based Westboro Baptist Church (WBC), which is not affiliated with any national Baptist organization, announced plans to protest at victims’ funerals only hours after 32 people were killed in the worst mass shooting in U.S. history. They also may protest at other events on the Virginia Tech campus.

The organization, founded and led by Fred Phelps, believes the United States has condemned itself to destruction by accepting homosexuality and other “sins of the flesh.” Phelps’ daughter, Shirley Phelps-Roper, said the Virginia Tech teachers and students who died on Monday brought their fate upon themselves by not being true Christians.

“The evidence is they were not Christian. God does not do that to his servants,” Phelps-Roper said. “You don’t need to look any further for evidence those people are in hell.”

Cho Seung-Hui, the Virginia Tech student responsible for the killings who took his own life after the shootings, was sent by God to punish those he killed, and America as a whole, for moral decline, said Phelps-Roper, while adding that she believes Cho is also in hell for violating God’s commandment to not kill.

“He is in hell,” Phelps-Roper said. “But he was also fulfilling the word of God.”

Because of its virulent anti-gay message and condemnation of Catholics, Jews and other groups, the WBC has been classified as a hate group by the Southern Poverty Law Center and is monitored by the Anti-Defamation League.

Curtis Dahn, the president of Virginia Tech’s Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual and Transgender Alliance, said he reacted with immediate disgust upon hearing of the WBC's plans. “Thirty-three people are dead and they’re using people’s deaths and people’s grief to further their own agenda and it’s just disgusting,” he said.

Dahn was friends with Ryan Clark, a resident assistant in Ambler Johnston Hall, who was among the first people killed on Monday. He said he is working with other university leaders and officials to form a response to the WBC. Ideally, he said, the funerals will be nothing more than a chance for family and friends to mourn in peace.

“Part of it is that I don’t want the families to be affected by this at all,” he said. “I don’t even want the funerals’ locations to be public knowledge. I don’t want a protest, I don’t want a counter-protest. I want people to be able to grieve and have what they want, not be made into public displays and mockeries.”

Dahn and others may have the law on their side. In 2006, in response to protests at the funerals of dead U.S. soldiers, Virginia enacted a law that added funerals and memorial services to the state’s disorderly conduct statute. Other states have adopted similar measures to allow police to keep WBC protesters out of earshot.

Oh no she di'nt....

Back story:

I have been registered with employment agencies for the past, at least, 7 years. In those 7 years they have run me into their offices to re-interview with THEM over and over again.

Also in those 7 years -- not one time did any of those agencies get me an interview anywhere. There was one point in time that I was registered with about 6 or 7 agencies all at the same time. All said how great my experience was, all said how easily they could get me a really high paying job, all said they had tons of jobs to send me on.

What did I actually get from them? Silence.

Well, I had all but given up then FINALLY one agency, actually sent me on a job interview. This is the one I've been waiting to hear back from.

Well, I interviewed with them then a few days later another agency called me and said, "Oh, I have this great patent paralegal job for you - you must come in immediately and meet with me so I can submit you for it!"

Well, being as we're flat broke and I'm in no position to snub any possible income, I went to Stamford to meet with this agency.

Come to find out that the job that she wanted to submit me for was the same damn job that I already interviewed with through the other agency.

No sooner did I tell her that that she told me to be careful with that company and find out why they have an opening.

Scare tactics.

Why? Because if I get that job she will not get the commission and, well, I shouldn't get it because she can submit me to another job.

So, I ignored her and she told me about this other paralegal job that she has doing Trusts and Estates work. Which I have never done before. I told her that.

What'd she do? Try to find a way to edit my resume to make it seem like I did.

Shady.

Oh but the shadiness? She does not stop there.

She called me a day or two ago to again try to convince me to put something on my resume to make it seem like I had done some of that kind of work before. Again, I told her I hadn't.

So what does she tell me? That the company I interviewed for told HER that they were in the process of hiring someone else and not me and I should try to remember if I had any experience that could possibly relate to that other job she has.

Wha?? So I emailed the agency that actually got me that interview and asked her if this was true. She just called me a few minutes ago to tell me that it absolutely was NOT true and that that company is currently in the process of putting together an offer letter for me (by the way, YAY! LOL) and that that lady totally made that sh*t up and that the company was appalled that she said that to me.

What a lying sack of sh!t! OMG -- how frickin' shady is that?!

Believe you me, I'm going to call someone over at Judlind Personnel and tell them that little Miss Greta is a shady a$$ b!tch and they need to fire her a$$.

Talk about shady. Man.

Anyway -- in case you missed it in that rant... THEY ARE GONNA OFFER ME THE JOB! Woot! Woot!

Well, sorta. lol

I so don't wanna do paralegal work again -- but it's gonna be good money so we can get back to taking care of our debts.

Kat is a true inspiration in this regard... she's so good about getting rid of her debts. I am going to try to follow her example.

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Speaking of Kat, she invited me and Jess to go to North Hampton Pride on May 5th. Woohooo... I think it's gonna be a blast. :D

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Damn it's frickin' hot in here! This weather is frickin' insane, I gotta tell ya.

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Hmm, I guess that's all I've got for now so...

Now... your Moment of Zen:

Ummm, it may have been a good idea to have another anchor report this story...

Oh no... warm weather.

Just about everyone I know likes the warm weather. Me? Not so much.

Why? Because every year I swear to myself I will NOT be this large when shorts/t-shirt weather comes around again. It's really quite difficult to hide this weight when I'm in less bulky clothes.

2007 apparently is no different and I'm still in need of hiding the lard just as much, if not more, than any previous year since 1992 when I was pregnant with Jeremie. LOL

But on the plus side (aside from me), I found out that as a community member our family can join the Y for free. So I did that and Jess and I are gonna start going to open swim for excercise. I'm SOO excited about that.

I hope we can go tonite! (hint, hint baby!)

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Still no word on the job front. Well, that's not totally true -- my former boss emailed me and told me that she's playing phone tag with one of the attorneys at the Stamford job that I mentioned last week and don't actually want to do. lol

I am also doing some part time work all day on Wednesday for this adorable older gay couple that own a florist business. I'm going to go to the French Embassy in Manhattan then to a hotel to set up for a wedding with them -- so I'll be gone all day but the pay's not too shabby for part-time work and lord knows we need the cashola.... so there ya go.

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I see no one went to speakyourmindshere.blogspot.com. C'mon now, I KNOW you people have someone or some thing you want to b!tch about!

It's totally anonymous! And it's a free call! Git yer arses over there pronto! :P I'm trying to see if I can get it to be as big as postsecret's project. So I need your help!

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So we went to football practice yesterday and I believe I'm going to be a linebacker.

See what I mean about being large??? Anyway, we really appear to be hurting for players -- anyone interestd in playing women's tackle football?

Visit our website: www.ctcyclones.com -- then come back here and stroke my ego and tell me how much you love the website. lol

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Anyway -- the owner of our football team is a real mover and a shaker. He may have hooked me up with a paid website and POSSIBLY a film production job in Manhattan. That would be frickin' awesome.

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Hmmm what else -- I gotta say, I'm getting really used to be home every day... this isn't good. lol

It's totally made me lazy.

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So Boris Yeltsin died.

Yep.

And no one called him on the Ghoul Pool.

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So the football documentary is coming along -- thanks to Jessie who shoots while I'm practicing. It's kinda difficult to get the kinda footage I when I'm on the field... but I'm hoping when we're travelling things will be easier.

I'm trying to make sure Jess gets on the staff so when we do travel she can come with me. It's ok if she's on the bus but if we are taking a flight, well... that's gonna be harder to accomplish. :P

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Alright, I better go do some laundry... so here's your Moment of Zen:

Damn, I just sh!t my pants and that thing wasn't even outside my house.

Tis me.

Hi.

I'm sorry about the tone of my blog lately. I've been feeling really f*cked in the head lately.

I do have some good news:

1) We sold the Jeep.
2) The mortgage company said they will accept March's payment (which I paid today) and try to work something out for April - going forward after I send back the paperwork they are sending me.
3) We bought groceries the nite before last (we were running on E practically).
4) That job that was checking my references called for a salary history yesterday so I think we're getting closer to an offer...
5) It's looking like I may be able to pick up some part time work if that falls through.

The bad news:

1) Jess and I are so stressed out we're begining to fight a lot.
2) That is stressing me even more than the money issues.

We're doing all we can to solve our problem. Every single possible avenue is being explored. And... well, that's the best we can do.

So, I've decided that I am going to try to stick with the "don't worry - be happy" approach. After all, I still have my family no matter what happens.

The rest is out of my hands.

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Thought:

No, I'm not insulted at all that I interviewed for this job well over a month ago and now it's been relisted. Damn, they didn't like me so much that they would rather not have anybody.

Wow.

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Jess and I had a nice long talk yesterday about how we need to stick together through the tough times like we do any other time and I'm really happy with the outcome of our conversation.

I love her too much to let bullsh*t financial issues stand between us.

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Well, I've registered for my summer classes -- yes I'm still in school! lol

I'm taking Psychology - Child Development, Psychology - Adolescent and Sociology - Social Problems. They run from the beginning of May to the end of June. After that I have 19 credits (or 6.3 classes to go). What sucks is that I have one random credit I need to take. All the other classes are 3 credit classes.

I'll never find a 1 credit class. LOL

Anyway -- that's what's going on. Hopefully I'll be done by December and I can start working on the ARC program to get into teaching.

So the plan is for me to get a job -- and for us to jump all over our debt and clear it up. Once that's done, I can stop doing paralegal work and get into teaching so I can focus on that and my independent films. :D

Here's to hoping that it all goes according to plan! :D

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Got some plans for the weekend -- I'm pretty happy about. Haven't been out and about in ages! :P

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Welp, I guess that's it for me... so here's your Moment of Zen:

SORRY, IMAGESHACK SCREWED UP THE VIDEO -- no zen, sorry! :P (if you really want to see it, email me and I'll send it to you.)

Yeah, thanks for the reminder...

Welp, guess who's not working on that film.

Me.

I realized I was living in some kinda dream. I need to be available to work/interview for a real job and not spend all my time wrapped up in a film for the next two+ weeks for something that may or may not bring me money at a later date. :(

I went on those two interviews and one of them is currently checking my references. With any luck, they will offer me the job soon and I can start working.

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I bought two lottery tickets in a last-ditch effort to bring ANY kind of money into this house. Of course I lost but I got to see THIS lovely reminder of how unfair life is:

http://www.ctlottery.org/
(the banner at the top)

The girl who is second from the left is my son's father's girlfriend -- remember when he won $100K and put all of the money in her name to avoid paying child support? F*cking bullsh!t.

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Jeremie's going on a free flight on a helicopter tomorrow with Civil Air Patrol. He's sooooo excited. Hell, I want to go! lol

Lucky bastage.

Of course I have to drop him off at 6:30 am which doesn't excite me very much.

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Speaking of Jeremie, the boy he's in the living room playing the video game (he's on vacation this week from school) and that boy is SUCH a poor sport when it comes to his video game.

He gets SOOOOOOOO angry when he doesn't do well in a game he starts shouting and whining and acts like a total 4 year old. Hell, I've seen 4 year olds take losing more than him.

Eventually he'll just go find cheat codes and beat the game that way. lol

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So last night we were watching the news about what happened at Virginia Tech and I felt sick to my stomach thinking that that could've easily happened at Kristie's school.

I absolutely detest school shootings.

Our babies are trying to learn and make a place for themselves out in the world and some dysfunctional a$$hole decides that they are never going to live that life that they were striving for.

It simply makes me sick. My heart goes out to those families.

I would never recover if that ever happened to one of my kids.

On the news they kept pointing out the families that lost their only child and I kept thinking -- what the hell difference does that make?? Is it more painful b/c they don't have a spare???

A$$holes.

Then Katie Couric talked to President Bush and at the end of the interview she asked him if things like this make him concerned about gun control laws and OF COURSE the prick dodged the question. Gotta keep your gun-totin' Republican cronies happy, after all. Dead 18 year olds or not.

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...sigh... life.

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Woohoo! This guy is coming to look at the jeep in about an hour! He's got money cash in hand... yippee!! We may be able to pay the mortgage yet! :)

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Ok, I gotta run -- here's your Moment of Zen:

Heh.

Stone Hawk Drug Rehab

Stone Hawk drug rehab appears to be a very unique place. It's a drug rehab run by ex-addicts. Who better to be able to relate to those with addiction than those who felt the pain of addiction?!

I think it's a fantastic idea. I knew of this place in CT that was also run like that and that program did extremely well.

I think that is the main reason why they boast a 76+% success rate. They get it. Far more than those of us who have never had an addiction could possibly understand.

Situated on beautiful St. Mary's lake -- Stone Hawk is out of the every day and sounds like it will give people a real opportunity to escape the demons that drugs impose on others.

What an awesome program.

Check them out here.

Pssst

Pass this around.

I'm doing it for kicks.

I need some new material...

You know -- what I miss most about having a job (besides the money) is the blog material that comes from being out there in the world and interacting with the blithering idiots. LOL

Being at home all the time (though I love it) leaves me to only talk about the people in the house and well -- that's boring even me! lol

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Anyway -- leaving in about 10 mins for an interview in Bridgeport which is about 13 mins. (less the way I drive) away. It's for an office manager position in a manufacturing company for an about $2K paycut from my last job (which was the highest paying job I'd had to date). The company is located in a pretty rough section of Bridgeport -- but being as I've lived in some pretty shady neighborhoods, I have no real issue w/ that.

The current office manager/boss' wife was really nice and we ended up chatting a lot on the phone when she responded to my resume.

Then tomorrow is a 2nd interview in stamford which is 20 mins away w/o rush hour traffic and an hour away with it - doing paralegal again for more money than even my last job.

Even though the first job pays less, that's the one I'm hoping to get. I'm really sick of the paralegal work. Like Erin Brockovich said, I hate lawyers.

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The film shoot starts on Wednesday and Tina is going MIA for about 2 weeks. I seriously doubt I'll have an ounce of energy or one second to blog in that time... so that's gonna be that.

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Kat and Tina came and hung out over the weekend -- it was really nice to just hang out and chatter. :) Thx guys!

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Sunday we went to that youth group we facilitate and we skipped football practice -- I was damned if I was gonna drive all the way to N. Branford in that driving rain the N. East was hit with yesterday.

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oo I gotta go -- wish me luck!

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A few things to memorialize here.

Today is our son Jeremie's 14th birthday. I can't believe he's already 14. Jiminy Christmas.

Happy birthday baby!

It's also Friday the 13th. Mwahahahahahaha! lol

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I got a job as a production assistant on a movie that is shooting in New Haven. Again, it's not really a big pay that I'm getting here but it's 18 (grueling) days of production where a) I can learn a lot about making my own films and b) I get credit for it in the credits of the movie and I'll be listed in the internet movie database (imdb.com) - even though there's already someone with my name in there who is an editor on several films - so now I'll be in there twice! LOL

The name of the film is: Friends (with Benefits). lol

When I got the email about my interview that title was in the subject line of the email and I thought to myself, god, I hope Jess doesn't see this email and think I'm up to no good! LOL

When I told that to the girl I met with before I met with the director she said the cinematographer had the same problem because when she met with him she wrote down "Friends (with benefits) Ashley and her phone number" on a slip of paper and his girlfriend found it and went nuts. LOL

Shooting starts this coming Wednesday. I'm pretty excited about it. :D

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I also found out that one of the two paralegal jobs I'd been waiting to hear back from decided to "go with someone with a different skill set". Which means, they didn't like me after wasting 2.5 hours of my time (not including driving time).

Whatev... f*ck you buddy.

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I do have a part-time job that I'm going to find out about tomorrow doing floral work (of all things) with a gay owned business right in town, so at least that'll be some money. Doesn't pay too bad for a part-time gig. The days are Wednesday - Saturday approx. 9am - 3-5pm. We really need the money since we're now very late with the mortgage. I wonder if I can scrape together some change to get a powerball ticket. LOL We don't need to win the jackpot: $5,000 would save our lives, $2,000 would save the house.

Dear God, it's me Tina -- you know, the one who doesn't believe in you? LOL
No?
Hmm... Dear Devil...

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Supposed to be going to a football game tomorrow to see one of my football teammates play a game on her other football team the CT Crush. But we can't afford the $10 tickets. LOL

Sad, sad...

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Was also supposed to go into NY tonight to be at a club to meet Donna -- the lesbian entrepeneur that I realllllllllllllly want to work with. But, again, can't afford that either.

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In the good news department the gay marriage debate has left committee and is now going to be argued at the House here in CT.

Wow, go Connecticut! :D

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Welp... off to do more job searching... :D Here's your Moment of Zen:

Who knew hockey was so sexual!? No wonder Evil and AB like it so much! ;)

Flattery or Mockery -- you decide.

So quite a while ago I was "interviewed" about my involvement with YouTube.com.

Apparently I found my way into someone else's video.

But I don't think it's flattering to me... that said, take a look:

Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday....

Hiya campers.

Seems like I had a lot more time to blog when I WAS working, doesn't it?

Bizarre.

Anyway -- the job search continues.

I thought I had an interview today and come to find out it was YESTERDAY. I missed lunch with Kat for it... Son of a... anyway, they were kind enough to reschedule me for Thursday.

Not a big paying gig BUT an exciting one.

It's working as a PA for a feature film that's being shot in New Haven.

I also just found out that the woman I did my internship with for filmmaking is hiring. I emailed her and haven't heard back yet (hope that's not a bad sign and that she's just busy). She liked my work though, so I'm hoping it's the latter.

Things are pretty desperate here. So much so that Jess and I have gone it somewhat of a depression. Val and Kat have both made attempts to pull us out of it (which we are eternally grateful for) but we are currently in the wallowing stage. LOL

I have to write a bazillion more articles for hubpages for it to be worth my while. I just gotta find topics to talk about that have any kind of remote interest for me.

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Friday is Jeremie's birthday and we are flat broke. K is taking him and Kristie out to this entertainment center place they love and I feel wretched that that's probably all the celebrating he's going to get unless someone donates a large sum of money to me asap. (ok, ok, shameless... worth a shot though).

I feel bad for the boy, I really do.

But, it is what it is... (right Katie?)

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Today is my mom's 57th birthday.

It was also my aunt who passed away's birthday today too. I love you.

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I'm trying to lose weight again -- didn't want to talk about it here b/c I'm sick of posting how I'm trying to lose weight on here... but I lost 3.5 lbs. so far... so I kinda was excited about it. LOL

Shhh let's not speak of this again ;)

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Welp, I gotta go cook some dinner. Love you guys.

Here's your Moment of Zen:

REMOVED B/C IT WAS ANNOYING ME

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Paying the bills:

Check out Target coupons at CouponChief.com

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What is up with that, anyway?

Do I subliminally sign up for people's "jokes" emails whenever I give my email address out? Why do soooooooooo many people instantly take my email address and attach it to a forwarding list 48,000 miles long and send me the same tired a$$ jokes I've seen thousands of times???

Why?!?

Stop it!

I've already seen:

1) "If women ruled the world" pics of sh!t made feminine because women can't seem to use a bowling alley not decorated in flowers or a hammer made out of a high heeled shoe or some other such nonsense.

2) It is NOT national friend's week!

3) I am NOT one of the beautiful women you know so stop sending me Perfect Moments pics with inspirational crap. I don't want to be inspired!

4) I dare some rapist to ask me for help in the mall parking lot then try to kidnap me.

5) Bill Gates is not giving me money!

6) I don't need home remedies!

7) That 4 page joke is NOT funny! Thanks for wasting my time!

I mean, come on -- I don't mind them once in a while from close friends but if I just talk to you once in a blue and the only time you pop up in my email box is with the letters F-W-D in the subject line - LEAVE ME ALONE!

I'm just sayin'... :P

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Jess is back at work... the kids are home for Good Friday.

Me? I have to get crackin' on some of these papers and such so I have to stop procrastinating soon.

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Applied to a few more jobs this morning -- spoke to someone else about a job I applied for. Not too shabby.

Trying to think of something to write about for a new hubpage or 50. I'm trying to get my pay up to $500 next month. That means I have to write 100. LOL Two down 98 to go!

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So I heard from that girl that's friends w/ Jess' ex and I guess she's cool with everything. Glad to hear especially since I have to be at a board meeting with her next week. lol

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We have some free movie tickets to use and I want to use them tonight.

The movies I'm interested in seeing are:

Meet the Robinsons
The Reaping or
Reign Over Me

Anyone seen any of those yet? I heard Meet the Robinsons was hysterical.

Yay! A date! For free (soooo an added bonus).

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Know what irritates the hell outta me? How my son argues everything that comes out of my mouth. D@mned if I don't wanna pop him one sometimes.

He'll ask me a question then disagree with my answer or point out where I misspoke or some other such thing to show how superior his thinking is.

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ok ok, I've procrastinated enough... off I go. Here's your Moment of Zen:

I thought I was lazy.

Sign 'o the times

Ever wanna go back in time and kick yourself in the face?

...sigh...

OK - I'll admit it. I should've waited to leave Yale until I had another job lined up. We woulda been ok if Jess' job didn't f*ck her over and refuse to pay her for 3 of the weeks she was recovering from her surgery.

Now we're once again in a desperate way. You wouldn't believe the kinds of jobs I've applied for. Next is McDonald's, I swear. Desperate times call for desperate measures.

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Ugh, enough about that -- can't stand to think about it anymore.

Kristie's coming home tonight. Yay! The gang will all be home tomorrow -- well, except Jess, that is...

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My mother has surprised the hell out of me. Due to a mixup at the bank a whole bunch of bills went out that shouldn't have (we didn't have the money) and we bounced like 85,000,000 times. In my desperation I actually asked my mom for some money.

I can't tell you how difficult that was for me to do.

I haven't asked her for a single thing since I left home back in 1990 when I was 17. So what did she do? Threw me a few bucks without giving me any shit for it. Unlike my father who wouldn't spit on me if was on fire.

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So, what else can I tell you. There's gotta be something non-broke related. Hmmmm... I'm doing really poorly in school this term. I just have not been able to focus. I have two papers to write by Sunday, one of which is nearly done, but I really need to sit down and just do it tomorrow.

I don't know, but with all that's been happening, I just haven't been able to put my mind into my studies.

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Welp, off I go. Here's your Moment of Zen:

I love this video!

Lookin' for ideas...

Howdy.

So.... I'm STILL lookin' for a job... fancy that.

My unemployment was denied so the urgency is now ten fold.

I'm applying like a mad-woman... opened myself up to temping and am now editing podcasts for alesbianslife.com.

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Thank you Rain!

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Nicki and KB quit football...so now I'm the lone ranger out of the 6 people I knew who were gonna play with me:

Jess - out due to her surgery
Katie - out due to her knee
Nicki - out due to her possibly moving
KB - out due to her just not caring that I'm all alone now. LOL
Bear - out due to her foot injury.

What' s that leave? Me holding the bag. Son of a... dammit! I was the one who didn't want to play the most!

Oy!

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Anyway -- the football team website went live yesterday only to find out that the server who is hosting the pointer is somehow messing it up so that the scrollbar is missing. How or why, I have no idea.

But they are trying to say it's me... and well, what do you think.

www.ctcyclones.com is a pointer. Meaning... there is no website behind it. What happens is: if someone types in www.ctcyclones.com their browser will "point" them to my server without letting the user know that they are going someplace else... crafty huh?

Anyway... right now (and depending on which browser you're using) if you type in www.ctcyclones.com it will take you to the right page but you won't see a scrollbar for you to scroll down the page...

However if you go directly to my server and bypass the "pointing" it works fine. www.myparalegal.org/cyclones.html. Soooo that would lead one to believe that it's the pointer that's the problem, right?

I thought so...

Waiting to hear back about that.

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Ok, I need your help. I need to do a podcast on a topic that's interesting to lesbians (possibly controversial!?)

I also need volunteers to "call in" and be part of the podcast. I need your help! Please either email me or comment me your thoughts and suggestions.

Thanks!

I also need topics for another article... so if you have something you want me to talk about... send it! :)

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Time to go... so here's your Moment of Zen:

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